When I was feeling a little low a few nights ago, I tried to channel my thoughts in a positive direction by thinking of a memory that I could use if I needed to produce a Patronus at that minute (because I'm such a Potterhead). I ended up getting more sad because, try as I might, I couldn't think of any.
Still haven't. I even asked the best friend for ideas, and though she pointed out some contenders, none felt right. I mean I'm not really a "sad" person, and I could think of tons of make-you-smile or even make-your-day moments, little things that mean so much but are often soon forgotten. I could also think of many moments that were happy or experiences that were generally very positive; but nothing that gave an undiluted sense of happiness of exhilaration. There was either anxiety or nervousness mixed with the happiness, or a bittersweet-nostalgic feeling. No on-top-of-the-world, I-did-it!, this-is-perfect, I-could-die-now, happiness that spills over, epic kind of moments. That doesn't seem right. Or am I looking at this the wrong way?
In the meantime, share some of your jump-for-joy, or as I now dub them, "Patronus" moments in the comments...it might trigger a memory or at least cheer me up!
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